CARPE DIEM

CARPE DIEM

Seize the day, thats what people say. But I never got the message.  Seizing the day has never become more important than when you got a job. When you got a job, your live your life by number: wake up 6am, leave for the office 7.30am, office by 9am, work til lunch at 12noon, back behind my desk by 1am, work again til 6pm, out by 7pm, catch the 7.30 train, home by 8.30pm, dinner by 9pm, sleep by 10pm, then its 6am again.

When do you find time to live a life? You make time. I never had the concept of time down pat.  I dont have a sense of urgency. I take my time. I need my quiet moments to quiet my mind and fix the trainwreck inside.

I live by the moment, when inspiration hits, when the bubble bursts, when the push turns to shove. Ambitions and goals are not top in my priority because I essentially make do with whatever I got at the moment.

Prioritizing is a luxury I cant afford when the flak hits the flame. Strange but I sound like an impulse buyer when it takes me a couple of visits to the mall before I decide to buy something.

No wonder I jealously guard my weekend. It is strictly time for myself and the countless and endless things to do around the house. Basically its time to sleep, watch television, read my books, go online, maybe go out and party.